The title of this blog comes from song lyrics that I heard many years ago by Switchfoot. And ever since the first time I heard it, these words have never left me. It makes so much sense. Although you might be standing in a shadow, that is direct evidence that the sun is still shining. I think that this is a great metaphor for my life right now. I am walking through some dark times. But I want these times to be evidence of the sun, and the bright glory of the Lord. And so while this blog will be chronicling some sad times in my life, I pray that it is also a testament to God, and a reminder of the good times in the midst of the shadows.

"I have said these things that in Me you may have peace. In this world, you will have troubles. But take heart, I have overcome the world!" John 16:33

Friday, February 3, 2012

Time of Waiting


Well I am now exactly two weeks away from my next set of scans. In the past month and a half since I found out about the spread, some days have been good and some days have been hard. There have been days when I panic, and worry about what is going to happen or what direction my life is going to go. But simultaneously, the Lord has been constantly blessing me, and reassuring me in his sovereignty. He is constantly reminding me that He has a beautiful plan for my life, and yet it is so easy for me to want to be in control and decide the next step.
I have had cancer for almost two years now. In some ways it feels like it has been forever, and in some ways it feels like the time has flown by. So much has happened. I am praying that in two weeks I will get good news, and that the cancer will not have spread. Even if I don’t, I pray that the Lord continues to reassure me in His plan and that He gives me peace. But as for right now, I am just waiting, and trying to live each day with joy. 

"For God chose to save us through the Lord Jesus Christ, not to pour out His anger on us. Christ died for us so that whether we are dead or alive when He returns, we can live with Him forever... Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who are in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5: 9-10, 16-18 

10 comments:

  1. Perrin,
    I love your blend of courage and hope and trust and truth. God speaks through you, even as He speaks to you. I'm glad to read that you're aiming to live each day with joy, and I'm so thankful for the wonderful friends you have around you who are helping to make the days so much fun!
    Love and prayers,
    Val

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  2. Many here in Opelika, Alabama continue to pray for you, sweet Perrin. We thank Him that He is about doing more than all we can ask or imagine, and we ask for His tender, healing mercies upon you!

    Dorenda White

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  3. Perrin,

    I don't know if you remember me but we met at Chippenham when you were in the unit I worked in. I was one of your nurses. You have always been on my heart and in my prayers and have enjoyed reading your blog and catching up on how you have been. I believe as you do, that everything happens for a reason and God has wonderful plans for you! Keep up your crusade against negativity and cancer! You are an inspiration! God Bless! Monica Medeiros, RN

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  4. Praying for you daily Perrin. We don't know each other that well but that doesn't stop me from thinking and praying for you often. Hope you know that the things you write here and the way you live your life through this situation is such an inspiration to people that are both close to you and those that don't know you as well.

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  5. I used to go to third pres. I knew you. I did a search for you and was surprised to learn that you had cancer. I wish you the best.

    -S

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  6. Perrin, our family has been praying for you throughout the last two years. We have seen your light shine in the darkness, and you have blessed us as you shared your faith. We continue to pray that you and your family feel His presence daily, and that His Word will ever be a lamp to your feet and a light for your path. (Psalm 119 : 105)

    With love,
    The Griffith Family, Jane, Keith, Kylie & David

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  8. Perrin, you do not know me, but I want you to know that I absolutely love your beautiful heart for Jesus. You are such a light that is shining so brightly for God, and I am in absolute awe over how God is without doubt, using you in such a huge way to influence people to find and follw Jesus. I love your blog, and you are continuously in my prayers and in my heart. Thank you so much for sharing your faith and your beautiful heart with the world. Blessings to you!

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  9. Hi,

    I have a quick question about your blog, would you mind emailing me when you get a chance?

    Thanks,

    Cameron

    cameronvsj(at)gmail.com

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