Well I am now exactly two weeks away from my next set of scans. In the past month and a half since I found out about the spread, some days have been good and some days have been hard. There have been days when I panic, and worry about what is going to happen or what direction my life is going to go. But simultaneously, the Lord has been constantly blessing me, and reassuring me in his sovereignty. He is constantly reminding me that He has a beautiful plan for my life, and yet it is so easy for me to want to be in control and decide the next step.
I have had cancer for almost two years now. In some ways it feels like it has been forever, and in some ways it feels like the time has flown by. So much has happened. I am praying that in two weeks I will get good news, and that the cancer will not have spread. Even if I don’t, I pray that the Lord continues to reassure me in His plan and that He gives me peace. But as for right now, I am just waiting, and trying to live each day with joy.
"For God chose to save us through the Lord Jesus Christ, not to pour out His anger on us. Christ died for us so that whether we are dead or alive when He returns, we can live with Him forever... Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who are in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5: 9-10, 16-18