I guess this makes me a blogger...

When told that I should start a blog, at first I was extremely opposed to the idea. It really freaked me out to be honest. Blog about my cancer? It just seemed too depressing. My thoughts felt to scattered and my brain felt too fried. But as the months have passed since my diagnosis, the more I have felt open to talk, and eventually the idea of a blog did not sound so abominable.

So first, I started writing about what I had been through in the past five months. But somehow, it didn’t seem quite right. So, instead of blogging about the past, I have decided to blog about where I am right now.  What I am thinking, what I am feeling, and what the Lord is teaching me. That is not to say that I think the past five months were unimportant to getting to where I am now. In fact, it is quite the opposite. I have had a devastating kidney cancer diagnosis, major surgery (as well as two other procedures), radiation, and hundreds of doctors’ appointments. I have been exhausted, angry, sick, lonely, terrified and sad. I can honestly say that it has been the hardest five months of my life.

 But it has all brought me to where I am today. I am a stronger person (maybe not physically, but at least emotionally and spiritually). I have learned and grown exponentially. So, instead of talking about the hard times in the past (many of which are still hard for me to write about), I want to write about where I am now and what the Lord is teaching me day by day.

I am moving into Furman to start my junior year of college on Saturday. In many ways, I feel like I am starting a new chapter in my life. But I am going to be at the place that I love and amongst so many people that I love. And I could not be more excited. J