Life has been really good the past few weeks. Wow, how often do I get to start a post like that? It is wonderful. As the seasons are changing, and everything is in bloom, I have felt this newfound energy and joy. I could not be more excited and overjoyed at the warm weather, beautiful flowers, and spring days. This semester is coming to a close so quickly, and I feel like time has flown!
I talked to my doctor the other week, and it was great (also a rare thing for me to ever say). She agreed with me that I should not go back on medicine until it is absolutely necessary. So we decided that I will not go on any type of intense medicine again until my cancer spreads. Which is wonderful. I don't know when my cancer will spread, but until it does, I am free.
I have scans in a few weeks, and if they show that nothing has changed, then I will automatically have the next three months free of medicine! I am still trying to figure out my summer plans, but that would open up so many opportunities if I do not have to worry about medicine each day. I am praying that the scans are good, and that I can have more months of freedom.
I am trying to really take advantage of these days. With this past year, I have gotten this newfound urgency in life. I want to experience everything, and I don't want to waste a single day. I don't ever want to look back on the days that I felt well, and wonder why I didn't use them. So even though these weeks are intensely busy as the semester is ending, I am trying to also pack them with fun and adventures.
I have more moments now when I forget that I have cancer. This whole past year those moments have been few and far between, mainly because I have always been feeling sick. Being sick or being in pain has always been a nagging reminder that something isn't quite right. But now, with most of the pain gone and the sickness subsided, there are moments when I can forget. And when I feel like any other normal college girl. And I love that.
"I lift my eyes up to the hills- Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, Maker of Heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip. He who watches over you will not slumber... The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm. He will watch over your life." -Psalm 121:1-3, 6-7
Perrgirl- that passage is one of my favorites! i can't wait to live next door to you next year and live life to the full with you!
ReplyDeletenewfound energy, joy, bloom, warm, beautiful, spring, wonderful, opportunities, experience, fun, adventures, free...
ReplyDeletei love seeing all of these words in the same post. and i love reading this:
"I have more moments now when I forget that I have cancer."
these are sweet words to hear. i am overjoyed for you!
With joy and thankful hearts, we'll keep praying for you, Perrin! Happy Easter!
ReplyDelete"So we decided that I will not go on any type of intense medicine again UNTIL my cancer spreads..."
ReplyDeleteDearest Perrin, We am trusting, through the GRACE and Resurrection POWER of Jesus, that there will NEVER be an "until". :-D Let the JOY OF THE LORD be your strength! And as you praise and thank Him for the beauty of His creation, and the wonder of His eternal GOODNESS, LOVE and TRUTH, pursue His TOTAL healing with a peace and confidence that HIS AMAZING Holy Spirit provides! Ask, seek, knock and ENJOY!!!!
With love and confident prayers! Dave & Dena N.
And He IS watching over your life! Every single second!
ReplyDeleteI have come that you may have LIFE and have it to the FULL!!! John 10:10
ReplyDeleteyayayayayay:)
Double Ditto for all the amazing offerings above! I couldn't add a thing... God has bless you with an incredible array of "Christ-incarnations" to walk with you. Stay the course.
ReplyDeleteYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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