The title of this blog comes from song lyrics that I heard many years ago by Switchfoot. And ever since the first time I heard it, these words have never left me. It makes so much sense. Although you might be standing in a shadow, that is direct evidence that the sun is still shining. I think that this is a great metaphor for my life right now. I am walking through some dark times. But I want these times to be evidence of the sun, and the bright glory of the Lord. And so while this blog will be chronicling some sad times in my life, I pray that it is also a testament to God, and a reminder of the good times in the midst of the shadows.

"I have said these things that in Me you may have peace. In this world, you will have troubles. But take heart, I have overcome the world!" John 16:33

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Big Week

I decided to write another post in order to avoid writing a paper right now, because my brain feels all over the place. So I apologize if this is really scattered.
This week is a pretty intense week for me. It seems to be the assessment period for all of my classes right now, so I have books to read, projects to do, lessons to teach, big tests and papers to write. My goal for this year was to not get stressed by minor issues (aka: schoolwork). While I am doing better than I have in the past with this stress, I cannot say that it is gone completely. Especially this week. I am feeling overwhelmed with my work, and get frustrated when I feel too exhausted to keep working.
In my head, it seems ridiculous to me that I am getting stressed over something as minor as writing a paper. I would have thought that after all the "big stress" I have faced in the past few months, that nothing little would ever stress me out again. I wish that were true. But unfortunately, sometimes the little things just add up until they seem to become big things.
Also looming over me this week is the prospect of starting my second cycle of my chemo medicine on Friday. While my doctors have significantly lowered my dose (because the last time I got so sick and because it lowered my blood counts so much), I am still nervous about how I will react. Ok, nervous is actually putting it mildly. I am dreading starting it again. But I have to get used to this, and the doctors have promised me that they will keep working with me to get this medicine to a livable dose.
But on the bright side, my dad is coming this weekend! It is Family Weekend and so he will be here, which I am so excited about! So there are good things to look forward to, but I just have to make it through the next few days.

"My comfort in suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life." -Psalm 119:50
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  1. Andrew ElizaldeSeptember 23, 2010 at 1:54 AM

    I pray that God will give you the strength to finish all of your school work and endure this next round of treatment. I am sure that your time with your father will be wonderful and perhaps even a reminder of the many ways that God continues to bless you. Press on.

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  2. JohnDozSeptember 23, 2010 at 1:07 PM

    Prayers for school work inspiration and ease, Perrin. You're so conscientious about doing your best in every way you can. Prayers also for the meds to cause as little discomfort as possible and an AWESOME time with your AWESOME Dad this weekend. Love to you from all of us, Perrin.

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  3. ValSeptember 24, 2010 at 12:24 PM

    Hey, Perrin! I've been praying for you, through the night and into this morning. I pray for God's sustaining help and peace. My mom has been on weekly chemo doses for 25 years! One's body does adjust, and it can be life-giving overall. Just ask my mom! Praying for you.

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