Today I went to alone to my doctor’s appointment for the first time since my diagnosis. (For the record, my parents offered to come down but this was just a minor appointment, so I didn’t think it was necessary to make the seven-hour drive.) At first, it made me feel grown up. But as soon as I entered the office, I immediately felt really young. Literally, everyone in the waiting room was over eighty years old. I felt a little out of place… I feel like age doesn’t apply to me anymore in a way. I am only twenty, but have experienced things that hardly any twenty year olds have had to face. I don’t feel like I am living the carefree life of a normal college student anymore. But I definitely still consider myself a kid. It’s an odd balance.
My oncologist and everyone at the Cancer Center are fantastic. They all look out for me there, which is such a blessing. I go back Friday for an infusion of medicine to make my bones grow, and I am praying that I don’t have any side effects. Hopefully this medicine will help my spine start to heal and recover from the holes left by the tumors. Luckily, my mom is coming down tomorrow, so she will be with me all weekend. I can’t wait to see her and spend the weekend with her!
“Be strong and take heart, all you whose hope is in the Lord.” –Psalm 31:24
hooray for mrs weezie in furman town!!!
ReplyDeleteDouble ditto on that hurray, Shealy!! If it's any wonder what it's like living fully for "Today..." (Psalm 95:7-8; James 4:13-15), Perrin's faith is the best example one could find! Praise God!!
ReplyDeletePerrin, Your strength, your resolve, your conviction touch me more deeply than I can say. You won't know until eternity the impact you are making on so many as you make this journey.
ReplyDeleteHug your mom hard for me!! Dorenda White
Perrin, I love the title. Most of all I love the strength you are receiving from God's Spirit. When you are weak He is strong. He is and will carry you through. He is more than able.
ReplyDeleteOn another note. I am so terribly sorry that you are having to go through this at all, especially at such a young age. We don't have to understand why God allows us to go through the things He does to trust Him to bring us through it.
I am praying for you and your family. When you are feeling weak and all alone, remember that those prayers are going before the throne of God and He is not deaf. He hears and He responds. He is working on your behalf.